Monday, February 11, 2013

What's Wrong?

I sit around and moan about being alone.  I sit at the local bar and whine about men not wanting older women.  I get a sweet guy who wants my attentions, and I run from him?  What the hell is wrong with me?  
Well, I suppose that there was the element of the unknown that could have affected the actions I took.  Maybe, I was afraid of the age difference, considering I was 14 when he was born?  As you can tell, I'm stacking up the negative points that could go against the relationship.  I suppose I want to know more about him, his background and the person in general?  Who knows?  
My sister says, that I want someone but then when I get the chance to have someone I don't.  I believe it's the fear of commitment and loosing my freedom.  I believe that I've been abused one time too many in my life and am afraid of having that happen again.  Either way I ran away from what could have been, once again and here I sit .......ALONE!

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