Getting Easier

Each day that passes gets a better grip on reality for me.  I've gone off the deep end with this one and so far the "pros" out weigh the "cons".  I'm in unfamiliar territory and it's scaring the hell out of me.  I feel so lucky and am afraid to tell very many people for fear of loosing it as fast as I got it.  It seems when I go around being happy about a relationship, all too soon my world comes crashing down around me.  This time has been so different and it's killing me to wait on it to build into something sound and firm.  Efforts are daily with communications and I can hardly wait to hear his voice on the phone.  He is wrapping my heart up into this great package and making it feel so warm and cared for.  Loosing him now would tear me apart.  I'm a person who falls in love too fast, and the feelings are growing with each passing minute and hour.  I'm ready to take our relationship further, but also realize that being sure is very important.  How do I wait without being a nutcase?  
Yesterday, I found myself sitting around all day hurting because I couldn't have it all as yet.  Man, I'm loosing it fast, and I see no hope for me.  This wonderful sweet guy has turned my world upside down.  Some one tell me how to hold myself down, while he gets closer?  I'm so ready to be with him each night, have a hot meal, waiting for the hard working man, who comes home tired at the end of the day.  Oh how, wonderful it will be if we can ever get to that point.  Please God, don't take this one away from me, unless you can see something in the future that wouldn't be right.