It's been a week and a day since I met a man. I don't know how to react to all the things that have materialized in the last few days. When I'm unsure of myself, I talk continually and that's horrible. At this point I wonder if I've turned him off with all my crap?
I'm scared to death that I will fall in love with this sweet man. I'm scared even more that he will decide he's not interested in who I maintain to be. Hope springs from every beat of my heart. Hell, I didn't think I had one left. Today, the questions are rushing through my head as I sit here writing.
I suppose I will have to wait on his next move to see where I am with him? My heart hurts to think I could try to believe in someone once again only to come up short of what I hoped would happen. This getting to know someone the first few times, are pure "hell".
I'm scared to death that I will fall in love with this sweet man. I'm scared even more that he will decide he's not interested in who I maintain to be. Hope springs from every beat of my heart. Hell, I didn't think I had one left. Today, the questions are rushing through my head as I sit here writing.
I suppose I will have to wait on his next move to see where I am with him? My heart hurts to think I could try to believe in someone once again only to come up short of what I hoped would happen. This getting to know someone the first few times, are pure "hell".
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