Again

Well, it's Saturday night and here I sit at home alone, once again.  I got out of the house for awhile today, but since my eyes aren't doing too well with driving at night I made sure to get back home before dark.  It's an old person's thing..........and yes I'm getting older.  Pisses me off, but there's nothing I can do about it.  Being alone has come after many years of trying to have relationships and having them fall apart.  Today, it's better to be alone, than with someone who abuses me, emotionally, mentally and physically.  I can do without that and it's very hard to know who will be one way or the other.  It's sad that I've come to this, when all I ever wanted was a lasting love.  Guess the jokes on me?