Only The Lonely

Love Hurts

When Will I Be Loved....

Same Feelings

I found myself part of a conversation, at the local bar last week.  It seems when we all got to comparing reasons for being where we were, they were exactly the same.  We lived alone, and the loneliness had driven us out of our homes, to come and be around people.  This gave us a certain amount of time to be away from the 4 walls and hear another person's voice, ideas and feelings.  During all of this, neither one even considered being in a relationship with one of these other persons sitting in that bar.  For whatever reasons we may have had, it all came down to going home alone once we left and finished out our evening excursions.

At Christmas

Looks as though I will be alone this year on Christmas Day..at least part of it anyway.........this is par for the course, since I have isolated myself from most people who are users.  Users tend to ask your for this and that without ever caring whether or not they are over extending you kindness or services.  I have five children who have lives of their own and are spending Christmas with their friends and families.  I just don't happen to be included in their festivities.  My Mom, is in the hospital and that has changed plans, with my sister to the point of not having anything, so to speak.  She's placing all her efforts around Mom, and my step dad since they are so old, it may be their last Christmas.  This I understand, but loosing the rest of the holiday just doesn't fit the scenario.  So, since I had planned to spend Christmas with her, I'm left to a limited amount of the day to enjoy.  I suppose, that this is what I should have expected, since I no longer have a spouse in my life and can't rely on others for my happiness.  I can't give the extra efforts, when I don't feel them, and I don't consider making myself go out of my way, something that makes me happy.  I can be alone and not have to put up with what others expect of me, even if it pisses them off at me.  They are doing what they want ........anyway.  Why shouldn't I?

Lonely People...

A lonely person will be less trusting of others, essentially "making a mountain out of a molehill. An odd look or phrasing by a friend that wouldn't even be noticed by a chipper person could be seen as an affront to the lonely, triggering a cycle of negative interactions that cause people to loose friends. A lonely person is likely to lose touch with another person, who in turn gets cut off from others, and both end up on the fringes of a social group. It is more of a state such as hunger, which evolved as a cue to motivated our ancestors to go find food.
Over time, lonely individuals become lonelier and transmit such feelings to others before severing ties. "People with few friends are more likely to become lonelier over time, which then makes it less likely that they will attract or try to form new social ties.

All By Myself

Sad Eyes.......

Not In Love..........

I Miss

I get older everyday, and wonder what tomorrow will bring.  Will I turn the corner and there will be the one I'm looking to find.  Will I meet someone who I can get involved with.  Should I even hope, when everything seems so bleak?  I miss being with someone, holding them close and feeling loved.  I miss being special to a person, who cares that I'm alive and in their life.  It's so hard to be alone, without someone to love you and need  you.  I keep hoping that I can find a person, who will want me as much as I will want them.

Each One

I was sitting around several people the other evening, and found we all had the same thing in common.  We were in that bar, drinking in order to be out of the four walls, where we found so much loneliness.  Here were several people, who were all lonely and no interest in the people they were talking to, except the sound of someone's voice, and conversation.  Just a few conversations, about different subjects brought us back to the same subject of being alone, and tired of the empty place we lived.  I realized that I wasn't the only person, in this world that had found the loneliness too hard to bare constantly.