Again

You'd think I'd learn after all these years, about men.  Two topics are always on their minds...........sex, and food.  If he's not horny, then he's hungry.  Damn it, why in the hell don't they give me a chance.  Get to know me first before they want to jump in the sack with me?  Hell, I want to know what and who I'm laying down with.  He could be a serial rapists....a thief, a criminal on the loose...........I need to know that this person is above board, which is hard to connect with these days.  If I were young as I once was, then I might be stupid enough to jump in head first, without thinking.  Today, being mature gives me restraint when it comes to getting in the bed with a person, I just met.  It's only good sense to protect yourself, every way possible.  Damn these idiots that think I'm old and prudish. 

It's Hot

The weather here is getting so hot and with it comes the dragging feeling of tiredness and laziness.  The humidity when we actually have rain, really works a number on me.  I'm sure that if I got a chance to score with a lucky guy, I wouldn't feel like doing much.  When I consider even the thought, I realize that the mosquito bites would start itching and drive me insane wanting to scratch.  Making love is surly out of out of the picture at the present.  Guess I'll have to let that subject slide for awhile.....

Sorry

Yeah, it's been awhile since I posted on here, but it's only because I've had to put up with crap that was always in the way.  As a matter of fact, all of my blogs have suffered because of one thing or another that has developed in my life.  I've been lonely and always trying to stay away from thinking about it.  Yet, there are times, I should be on here writing what I feel.  I think I want a relationship and then I start thinking about the pitfalls that come with one.  It's not long before I've talked myself out of it and am glad to be without someone in my life.  Guess I've just gotten old and set in my ways.  Lonely can wait on solitude and peace.

News Today

There has been so much bad, sad and ugly things happening lately.  People are dying, weather is reeking havoc on the mid-western state's of the US, there are volcanoes erupting, earthquakes happening and who knows what else?  I am just glad to be alive and well with a roof over my head, clothes on my back and my stomach full.  There is so much suffering in this world and I feel blessed.  Being alone is bad, but I consider how things could be even worse, if the devastation had been in our area locale. Guess this post finds me, just "thankful" and that's ok.

Make Over

You know when it's time to do a body/health make over.  You know when you've gained too much weight.  It's then time to get the hunger pangs under control and start eating right.  I'm at that point and I know it's time to do something.  I can feel the crap starting to build up on me.  It's time to take control of all the wrong eating and drinking.  I know what that means and it's going to cut into my party time, but when you need to do something, then it's best to start as soon as possible.
Doing this is going to be even harder on finding things to keep busy.  I will need to get some other type of entertainment to do, that I can enjoy, without all the drinking and eating bad food.  Oh well, this is something that's got to be done.........so be it.

Hurt Myself

I did it again this week..........I went out and socialized with people who really don't give a damned about me, and some even cringe when I walk in.  I end up feeling emotionally abused by these idiots because of their ugly stares or nasty remarks.  It's part of the bar scene and I realize that you can't make people like you.  But damn it, it would be nice to socialize with them without all the crap involved.  There's always one in every crowd that's miserable and takes it out of the others.  I sure hope it's not me? 
So, I end up coming home, once again........ALONE.....knowing that I need to stop this shit, but also hoping that maybe I made a small contact with someone that was really needed.

Posting

In the last week I have been slack about my posting.  It's been a sad time for millions as we watch the life of Whitney Houston be snuffed out at such an early age.  It's trauma caused more than she could imagine.  People who loved her singing now must go on with only her memories.  I'm sure that her family can only fear the days ahead without her.  Friends must come to their aide when needed for emotional support.  Along with so many people I bid you "farewell" and may you rest in peace.

Poor Pitiful Me

I Want To Be Wanted.........

All Alone