Make Over

You know when it's time to do a body/health make over.  You know when you've gained too much weight.  It's then time to get the hunger pangs under control and start eating right.  I'm at that point and I know it's time to do something.  I can feel the crap starting to build up on me.  It's time to take control of all the wrong eating and drinking.  I know what that means and it's going to cut into my party time, but when you need to do something, then it's best to start as soon as possible.
Doing this is going to be even harder on finding things to keep busy.  I will need to get some other type of entertainment to do, that I can enjoy, without all the drinking and eating bad food.  Oh well, this is something that's got to be done.........so be it.

Hurt Myself

I did it again this week..........I went out and socialized with people who really don't give a damned about me, and some even cringe when I walk in.  I end up feeling emotionally abused by these idiots because of their ugly stares or nasty remarks.  It's part of the bar scene and I realize that you can't make people like you.  But damn it, it would be nice to socialize with them without all the crap involved.  There's always one in every crowd that's miserable and takes it out of the others.  I sure hope it's not me? 
So, I end up coming home, once again........ALONE.....knowing that I need to stop this shit, but also hoping that maybe I made a small contact with someone that was really needed.

Posting

In the last week I have been slack about my posting.  It's been a sad time for millions as we watch the life of Whitney Houston be snuffed out at such an early age.  It's trauma caused more than she could imagine.  People who loved her singing now must go on with only her memories.  I'm sure that her family can only fear the days ahead without her.  Friends must come to their aide when needed for emotional support.  Along with so many people I bid you "farewell" and may you rest in peace.

Poor Pitiful Me

I Want To Be Wanted.........

All Alone

Again

I stayed home again last night, when many were out on the town having fun and meeting someone.  It's one of those days when I felt I had been out one too many nights, only to come home alone, anyway.  Therefore I made my day count by going to different stores and buying things I wanted, whether I needed them or not.  I spent time browsing through different items, hoping to find something I really needed.  Nevertheless, it didn't happen, and once again after all my browsing, I came home with a bunch of bags, and settled in for the evening, alone.
Today, is the "Super Bowl" game, and I am debating whether to go to a club and enjoy the people, food and drinks?  I don't wish to stay out very long, because the danger of finding someone on the road, who can't handle his drinks and driving.  I will try to make it an early evening and finish the game at home. Alone!